Dream...Pray...Trust...

When i was still a little gurl, like those ordinary shy little ones, i prefer to be alone watching those undeniably special kids playing around... special... those with YAYA's and stuff.. and those wearing beautiful dresses.. those with cute lashes.. and all those having fancy things life has to offer... i used to wonder, what is it like to be on that circle of friends??? What is it like to be like a real princess??? ohhhhhh i'd always love to dream... that's why i was prone to reading fairy tale stories.. bed time stories.. all those that seems to picture life like you're in a dreamland... worry free... enchanted moments... happy endings... hmmmmmmmm....

But anyway, before i started dreaming again, let me continue my story... hmmm so that was it... i grew up contented with what life is offering me... I'm not supper rich... but i'm not super poor either.. my parents still afford to send us to legible catholic private schools... we were just taught how to value money and how to value life... they taught us how good gurls get rewards from Santa and from all those good people around us... they even taught us how prayers could change a thousand lives... hmmm lesson learned! olah!!!! I grew up to be a person who believes in fate and destiny... and prayers...

I could still remember, it was during my elementary grade i started dreaming being a flight attendant... it was when my family and i first traveled by plane from my city to where my dad and my elder brother was born... i remember, we were even fighting coz all 5 of us (Pilapil's siblings) crave to be on the window seat!!! hehe that was really a very shy stupid act.. but who cares then?? we were all children anyway.. hehe i couldn't even remember how those sweet flight attendants manage to settle all 5 of us!!!

Then that was the time i started noticing them... how they talk... how they manage to settle things... how they projected theirselves to look even prettier on flight... and so i dreamed, dreamed, dreamed.... i told myself, i wanna be a flight attendant too!!! i certainly will be in the future... and so i prayed, and prayed, and prayed....

 Time passed.. and i saw myself entering highschool... hmmmm... i never even noticed that was the time my parents business is on a crisis.. i just knew years after why they tried to convinced us to continue our studies on a public school!!! well, i really didn't know.. no one knew... we never dare ask though... they just told us they want us to experience how it is to be on another world... that we should try to see the world on its opposite side..(wise huh?!hehe) and so my elder brother and I agreed to take our highschool on a public school (me on my 1st year, and him on his 3rd)... and indeed, we saw how hard life really is... we managed to have new circle of friends... friends that taught us a lot more than those we used to have... friends that taught us how lucky some people were, and how some people are not... they taught us what a life we had and that we should be really thankful... they even taught us the meaning of 'Humility'.... ohhhhh i can't deny i also had fun there... teachers come and go... unsure classes (if it rains, its holiday!hehe).. cheatingmates (i hardly do that, i was too much afraid..though i admit i tried few times hehe shhhh).. feeling genious (specially in my favorite subject, math! hehe they just don't know that some of it were already taught to me in elementary..hehe)...

However, just before my 2nd year finishes, i encountered a fight between a guy classmate..he had been teasing me every single day and following me whereever i go.. he seems to be like a slight stalker..and just when the time i was really pist off, i started crying.. While walking on to my next classroom, my brother saw my tears... as my hero, my brother took all the risk and danger... they had a big fight... the guy was actually a member of a 'gang' (a kind of group that tends to have a stupid mission and was really rampant on that kind of society)... they even run after my brother and his friends with a knife... imagine that?! uh-uh... i even remember the following day, all eyes were focused on me and my brother... it was like they saw celebrities coming! Shouldn't they thought of that?? We were back to school with policemen as our escorts! hmpf... who could have dared touch us then?? no one!!! hehe though, after several days, case was closed... both parties agreed on one thing... if something happens to me and my brother, he will be the first suspect and vise versa...

And so that was the end of my years celebrating with them... i transfered back to a private school and there i finished my high school... good that our business went normal again... and gaining.. hehe Thank God...

Any how, my dream of being a flight attendant was still there.. nothing had changed!!! specially when i started flying back and forth again to diffrent cities away from where i find solace... ohhhhhh.... i always define a flight attendant as ever pretty and ever sophisticated job... aside from the fact that you tend to have all the chance to travel the world for free!!! hehe and so i kept on dreaming....

 Then, college days is on it's way to influence me... I took up BSC Major in Management Accounting... You thought i chose the wrong course huh??!! Don't worry... I didn't.. I already knew by that time that any four year course will do.. Ofcourse i still do have plans for my future... I knew i could be a flight attendant in God's time even if i won't take those usual course flight attendants had (tourism)... I just thought of my life after living my dream as a flight attendant, atleast i cud have a hold of some of my salary for a business of my own.. hmmmm isn't it a nice idea huh? hehe

 During my college days, i met a lot of people... good.. bad... drastic... political... celebrities...super rich...super poor...beauty queens...influencials...plastics!! i mean, all sort of people!!! My fashion world gave me all those chances... hmmmmm yup... I'm proud to say i was a model.. and still trying to keep my figure model like (just incase they still love to give me job when i get back..LOL )...  Kidding aside, Yes, i am a model... Jon2x Nunez, my mentor and my angel is the one who saw me transformed after being inclined to see the "real" world...hmmm and i thanked God so much when he finds me... I remember, it was during my first year... i was just 16 then.. i was on my way home after a choir's practice in church when our world crossed... isn't it magical??? It was also my dream being a model.. and i also prayed so much on that too! And just when opportunity comes, this is the time too i was put to test. To follow my dream or to let it pass...Being offered by an unknown person a chance to become a model, and after i had been given a calling card to contact him just incase i thought about it, the world around me starts to re-direct my way... what if this person is not a real agent?? what if he will just use me to get something out from me? What if he is just nothing but all lie???... "Stop dreaming Aubrey! You are still young! There is still alot of time to wait for a real opportunity!".... hmmmmm... That was all negative thoughts isn't it??? But that doesn't hinder me at all.. Yah, i told myself, if i wouldn't try, who would know i lost a battle??? If i wouldn't risk trying for my luck, who would give me such a chance if it is really an opportunity?? I might end up wondering each passing days asking my self "what if's"... and so there i called him up... and then found myself in a lime lights after all those scary, tough, but challenging screenings. There and then, i had taught all those people around me a lesson too...that you couldn't get a thing you want if you don't wanna try risking nor even tried making those dreams a reality... do you agree??? hehe i bet you would...

To make all the story short, after living my life plain, simple, and real during college days -amidst those uplifting moments, my dream of becoming a flight attendant was still in my thoughts... i firmly told myself, "by self prayers and of those people around me who knew all about those dream, right time will come and i will make that dream real!" And so i found myself waiting for that right time... i applied to almost all those domestic airlines we had... never concentrated myself on local jobs... enjoying my time while I'm positively waiting.... (even after all those negative feedbacks)... i even damaged my left ear because of my eagerness to learn swimming! (you know, they said flight attendants should know how to swim..) I coudn't even imagine how i passed the swimming test during one of those interviews i've got to one of those airline i applied... I just have less than a month then since i first knew how to swim... God swam for me, I know... hehehe It was just that those airlines were not meant to be for me... and so i still failed all those final interviews i went through... :(

So sad isn't it??? Why can't they just give me the job??? I pretty knew i was qualified... hehe sour graping am i??? But still, i managed to remain trustful... patience is a virtue (i usually remind myself), and.... if it's meant to be for you, it is meant to be whenever and wherever time will bring you... And so i never stop dreaming... never stop praying.. and never stop letting God knows that this is all i wanted in my life that time; and that I would still be more of a better me when I got the chance to have that dream....

And hmmm.....guess this time you all knew how my story ends??? Yes.... i was never wrong about dreaming, praying, and trusting!!! All will be will be... and all that is meant to be meant to be... right time and right amount of prayer is one good waiting tool.... Now i knew why I failed to have all my chances on those domestic airlines.. Now i know... Now I know... hmmmm.... He had reserved something greater!!!

Mwuahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

International Flight Attendant

July 17, 2006

(Monday)

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WOW!!! hahah... nag goosebumps q,te...
Grabeh,..just like any other girls..just like me... bt you already knw that i am not qualified..(i dnt hav d hyt!!tsk3x)...
yes, i knw that God has a greater and better plans 4 me...

I could still remembr your first show...uhhhmmm. sa VICTORIA PLaza...hahahahaha... I was Shouting out loud.."GO, ate INDAY!!!!haha". then sbay tingin si Mommy, "Psst, mkasab-an gani ta run!!!" hahaha.. "Cge, lng gud mommy..One of her fans man q.."

I knw ate U'r VEEERRRRRRYYYYYY HAAAAAPPPPPPPYYYYY now with all d blessings God has given you ... and im very happy 4 u 2....

Hope dli mi nmo kalimtan... and i will still call you "ATE INDAY"...hahaha

Thankz sa overnyt beach party treat nimo....(last summer,2006)..
GOD BLESS you as Always.. Lavyah....MWUAH....

[Shaun]

wow...im speechless again... now i know!...hehe